089 Cars, oh cars!

Salam.

Dah berabad tak hapdet! fuhhhhhh fuuuuhh~~*tiup habuk*

Dah lupe da kewujudan blog ni.. Haha. Maklumlah busy (busy tengok movie, busy chatting, busy melepak, busy study jauh sekali... hmmm.. tolonglah berubah ain!)

Sekarang ni tengah cuti. Yes, CNY, sume tau, how lame pendahuluan saye. Currently dah habis posting Surgery, nak proceed masuk Medicine next week (Ya Allah, selamatkan lah hamba mu ini!). Lately, banyak pulak dugaan yang datang. Haritu kereta kena langgar, huhuhu. Sikit jer. Tu tak terkesan lagi kat hati. Mase nak pergi report polis tu lah yang paling mengguris jiwa dan raga. Pergi sampai tiga balai baru selesai! Balik malam2. Memang bad mood lah malam tu. Memang sumpah taknak involve dalam mana2 urusan dengan polis trafik kat Malaysia ni! Serius! Bawak pun dah kurang sikit dari 140km/h. Control je speed takut kena deal dengan pakcik baju putih seluar hitam lagi.

Dah dijadikan takdir kot. Masa balik cuti CNY tu hari, kena lagi. Tapi bukan speed trap, kena saman sebab tak pakai tali pinggang keledar (Okeyh I know. Ops sikap. Sikap saye memang kureng sikit atas jalan raya ni). Kalau kena saman speeding tu tak pe gak, nampak macho sket. Cis2. Okelah, itu kira settle la sbab memang salah sendiri. Saya mengaku kekurangan sikap pemanduan saya.

Now, just NOW, konon bukak lah list saman online tu. Tengok boleh bayar online ke tak. Serius yang baru saman tu takde lagi dalam list. Kuar pulak saman lain sebab traffic obstruction di Jalan Sultan Ibrahim(???????) di JB on 4/9/2011. WTH???!!! I was in Sungai Buloh la dear pakcik-baju-putih-seluar-hitam-konon-macho. I was like grrrrrrrrr.... menyirap darah. Nasib baik tak tukar jadi Super Saiya. Okelah. Tell me macam mana Makcik (name kereta saye Makcik, sebab selalu mengaum bila tekan minyak, laju taknak, bebel je lebih)  saye boleh terbang pergi JB pukul 1.30 pm hari tu? Adakah Doraemon letak pintu suka hati merata2? I was definitely in Sungai Buloh! 

Okay, now dah cool. Everyone makes mistakes. With that in mind, saye akan bayar saman or is it samans? (Ok. I know. Summons). Nak argue pun tak pasal2 je kerja banyak. Just nak tanya, is it me the only person that received ticket for an unknown offense or is there anyone eslse yang dah kna? This type of error shouldn't even be there. Efektif ke saman yang sepatutnya untuk orang yang buat salah dapat kepada orang yang tak buat salah langsung? Dan perlu ke nak ikut kawasan kalau nak buat report kemalangan? My accident was in Sungai Buloh, I need to do my report in Selayang? Went to Damansara, that police tell me, I supposed to report that in Rawang. Went to Rawang, I was told to be in Selayang. Kalau report tak ikut kawasan tak boleh ke? Kan ada dalam sistem? Ok. Maybe saya yang tak faham cara perlaksanaan kerja mereka. Sumpah taknak deal dengan pakcik-seluar-hitam-baju-putih lagi~ Serius saya bawak slow2 je pasni.

Ni bukan Makcik. Ni  kereta ayah haritu kena langgar depan rumah,
sebab: parking depan rumah mase CNY.  WTH jugak!

Ni bekas brek kereta tu. Nampak sangat laju. Dalam kawasan  perumahan bawak slow2 lah!!
Dah la langgar lari. Tak bertanggungjawab betul manusia zaman sekarang ni!

072 Makcik ni cakap...

Salam,

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

fly AIN, fly~

062 Shoot for the moon.....?

Have you ever heard,

Shoot for the moon, and even if you miss, you'll land among the stars

Yes, it's kinda true. Because if we set the bar above form what we can get, we might as well get it. Kan? kan? Tetapi, macam mana kalau ada yang lagi tinggi daripada bulan tu ek? Kenapa tak shoot je kat situ. Kenapa nak moon jugak. Let's try and shoot for the sun.. or for the asteroids, or even the Pluto. Haha. Bein' ridiculous here. Sorry. 


But for now, I am aiming for the moon because okay for some reason, the stars are too many to count, and the moon is an easy target because it's bigger, and okay, this one is even more interesting. The stars is further away from the moon in distance. Right? It's just that, if people are successful, they are called as 'the star'. 


So what a biggie, if you shoot for the moon and failed, you are the star too. And who wants to be the moon? No one right? Because it got ulcerations and sands and not bright and no twinkleys like the stars. LOL. So, the conclusion is, why shoot the moon? (It is not beautiful already, why kill it?) And why even if we've failed, we'll end up among the stars? It's too far away from the moon. Oh, it's because the gravity ey? 

And another one,

Life is like a box of chocolates, you'll never know what you'll get.

 And this one, I personally confused. Is it like dark chocs or white chocs? I personally like strawberry chocs. Because it tastes strawberry. LOL. Okay, it is a box of chocs, so it will be a lot of different types of chocs. And by the way, normal person can't even differentiate between really dark choc (the bitter ones) and sweet chocs. 


So it will be like "Oh my god, both of them are chocolates and looks the same, are they twins? How is this one taste? It is really sweet, and this one? O_O err.. This one is bitter enough for my tongue to fall through my mouth." (I was just rambling. Sorry) And so, it is true, you'll never know what you'll get huh?

Uh. This is getting stupid-er. I was just boring. Sorry.


And by the way, Eminem/Slim Shady said : I shoot for the moon, but I'm too buzy gazing at the stars. LOL. And which 'star' are you gazing at, Mr.Eminem? *sarcastic tone*

061 How bad it was...

I was just wanted to say I'm sorry, now I don't give a damn!
You slammed that door like I've stolen your soul.
WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?
You had my respect now it's all gone.
Thank you very much for your stupid act!
And thank you very much also for spoiling my holiday mood.


Go enjoy yourself!
Because I know you wouldn't even think about how other people feel except for your own!
Think about it, who is really at fault here.

058 Watch your mouth because it hurts.

Like seriously. People nowadays seriously need to watch out. Kalau cakap main lepas macam air paip tu, tolonglah buat ayat dulu kat kepala. Sebab, kadangkala, ayat-ayat ni menyakitkan hati dan sebagainya. 

1. For example, when someone you know enter a competition, and they won. Then they keep talking about it after that just because she's happy. Patutkah anda cakap "So kau nak kata kau terror lah ni ek?"? Patut ke? Patut ke? Patut ke? For me, it's okay lah dia nak cerita pasal kemenangan dia. Mestilah dia rasa hepi n bangga dapat menang. Dan mestilah dia nak share story dia. In life, kalau tak cerita kat mak or bapak of course lah the next goes to 'the bestfriend'. Tapi kalau takde mak or bapak. So automatically it goes to the friend. 


2. Another example. Is it nice to say something like "You are kind of busuk la." to other people just because they are sweating? Like hello~ they know it! They feel sorry too to others because they are sweating like hell after exercise or walking up the forever-ongoing-stairs. They don't need you to tell them, they just need a good bath... and a perfumed shower gel.

3. Or another example, when people say something, please listen cause they tell you something because they want too. Just answer it with a "hmm..." will do. Because they know you are listening...... and they know that they want you to stop. *because of the cold reaction* ;)) But when someone are talking there are people who doensn't reply anything and just doing something else*unless they are in their bad mood lah, you probably need to keep a distance-_-*


4. The last example, seriously kita patut jaga the way we are talking, Sometimes, they are tones that are not that cool and they are also tones that are sounds like demanding. 

Ni semua daripada pengalaman dan jugak pengamatan keadaan sekeliling. It's just that kita tak perasan yang even the littlest thing hurts. Dan kalau kita dah buat orang sakit hati kat kita, kita yang berdosa kan? kan? This is also like a reminder to me to not say anything that hurts. And also, maaf kalau terasa.


Lastly, words stabs deeper than the swords, so please be careful~ ;))

056 Oh. Merdeka! Oh no. Belum...kah?

Haha. Merdeka! Let's wave that Jalur Gemilang together!~ Hah kau. Gila semangat.  Hari ni hari merdeka, tapi tak pulak terdetik hati nak pergi sambut. Takpe. Takpe. Saya sambut dekat bilik je. Dengan perasaan berkobar2 sebagai seorang anak pasca merdeka! Yes. Yang penting kita kena sedar macam mana nak pertahankan kemerdekaan kan? kan?

Haha. Oh no. Malaysia merdeka hari ni kali ke 53. Tapi saya merdeka lagi 4 tahun. Haha. Lagi 4 tahun baru nak grad. And jumaat ni PT, so jumaat ni boleh lah merdeka secara kecil2lan. Haha. ;))


Anyway, pagi tadi bangun awal (konon nak sembahyang tahjud), tapi bila tengok lappy masih on, FB terbukak lagi, saya online lah sekejap. Takpe sekejap je. Adelah dalam sejam kot. Lepas tu solat tahjud okay. Haha. 


Oh oh. Korang mengikuti DBSK/TVXQ/Tohoshinki tak? Huh huh. bersemangat ni. Yoochun baru keluarkan drama. 1st episode already aired yesterdayyy!~ Boo yeah babe!~ Tak sabar sangat2 nak download but just hope that line tak lah selembab hari tu. Dan hari ni.ish ish.

Oh yes. Sungkyunkwan Scandal. First episode aired already!~

look at that smile. *faints*

Oh. next info, Hari tu berbuka puasa dengan kawan2, meraikan diorang dah nak fly. Woot2!~ Syaz will be going to Ireland, Hafizah Sidek, will b going to Uk, liverpool *oh no. jeles gila nih!* and Feeza Misrin to Ohio, US. Bestnyeee kan dapat pergi belajar luar negara? Oh tidak. Saya jeles sangat2. Tapi rasanya dalam negara lagi best. Bak kata pepatah, hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan platinum di negeri sendiri. Kan? Kan? Anyway, just wish them the best from here. ishkk. Bubye guys~ 

the last goodbyes, still camwhoring. *lalalala*

oh. inilah muka2 yang nak terbang2 tinggi tu.

*kecuali si tudung merah bercermin mate tu ye*

ini pizza kami!~ Kecoh balik bila tengok. 

Thin crust! Saya suka, macam Domino's.

055 Pengakuan : saya pernah masuk PERKID

oh no. kenapa sume blurrrr???

carilah sayee~ ;))

Serius. saya budak jahat. saya ade masalah sosial. So, semalam, saya dihantar bersama rombongan ke PERKID, Hulu Langat.


Oh Oh tidak. saya tidak ditahan kat sane sebab bukan parents saya yang hantar. Haha. Gotcha! ;))


Ok. The reality is saya pergi PERKID ikut rombongan mak cik kiah eh eh lawatan kolej Delima dengan Encik Rais as pengiring. So kat sana, kami berbuka, bertarawikh, dan berkenal-kenalan lah dengan kawan2 kita yang tak senasib dengan kita ni. Tau tak PERKID tu hape? Hah. Tatau kan? kan? Ok. saye je kot yang tatau mula2.

Ok. Untuk orang yang macam saya, PERKID tu macam pusat pemulihan ahlak lah tapi dengan bertiangkan agama. Best kot dpt masuk situ sebab kita dapat belajar agama n everything. Hah, nak tau best ke tak, silalah masuk sekali ye. Jom~

Sekarang dah pukul 6 petang. oops... Makanan buka tak beli lagi! So ringkaskan je lah. Korang sambil baca sambil buat ayat sendiri je lah~


Sebab masuk PERKID : Mostly sebab masalah sosial yang terlampau, minum arak, pills, berzina etc.
p/s : kalau korang nak masuk sangat2 and sangat2 nak jadik salah seorang anak2 PERKID, silalah buat  benda alah tak bermoral ni ea. Senang saje caranye. ;)


Tempoh duduk kat PERKID : Biasanya 1 tahun 6 bulan *lama wooooo*. Tapi masa ditentukan oleh Abah (Pengerusi PERKID), Ummi n Ibu lah. Lepastu kalau dah keluar, ade parole-like tempoh 3 tahun. Kalau time ni tak insaf2 lagi. Kena bawak balik masuklah. Jawapannye : 3 tahun extend tak leyh kuar2. Padan muka.


Aktiviti kat sana : Bangun pagi, ade kelas agama ( fardhu 'ain, al-Quran etc.), tidur tgh hari kejap, solat zohor, kelas petang, riadhah, dan yang memasak tu akan masak sama2. Lepas tu solat, and ngaji n basically mcm2 lah. Yang dah senior2 tu (yang dah dduk 1 thun lebih), mungkin akan ikut sekali OPS2 PERKID masa malam tahun baru ke, Merdeka ke, Valentine ke. Kira ikut berdakwah la. Best kan? kan? Hah. Kalau nak silalah suruh mak bapak u all daftar ye~


Macam mana nak masuk? Ok. mostly, yang masuk ni dihantar (dipaksa,ditipu,dipaksarela,memang rela etc.) oleh parents mereka. Ade jugak yang diangkut (dijemput,ditarik etc.) oleh pihak PERKID. Tapi dengan kebenaran parents lah. Mesti parents2 still sayang sangat dengan diorang nih tapi tatau dah nak buat hape dengan diorang yang takde harapan nak berubah ni, so hantar lah kat sini. Kesian kan mak bapak diorang?  Memang lah salah diorang jugak sebab tak jaga baik2. Tapi ada jugak yang berlaku di luar kawalan diorang, so kesian kan?


Masa sesi bersosial dan berkenal-kenalan dengan diorang ni, macam2 pengalaman yang dapat kitorang ambil dan jadikan iktibar. Tapi yang pasti mostly adalah sebab guys lah (pakwe, balak, teman lelaki, kawan lelaki, baby etc). Perempuan ni, senang je nak cair. ayat sikit2 dah cair macam cokelat cadbury. Diorang ni memang pantang kena ayat. Hah kau, mula2 pegang sikit, pastu pegang banyak2 diikuti dengan rabe2, disusuli dengan adegan dan aksi panas macam ariel tu. Eh eh. shhh...


Ok. So, konklusinya di sini, kaum2 hawa sekalian, tolong lah jaga maruah awak tu baik2 ye. Jangan lah percayakan mana2 lelaki kaw2 100%. Karang kaw2 depa pergunakan hangpa. Eh, pergi kedah kejap. Kalau nak berkasih sayang, manja2, cintan cintun, kiss2 sume silalah tunggu si lelaki tu dah sah2 jadi suami awak okeyh.


And GUYS! tolong lah sedar sikit, awak tu dilahirkan sebagai pemimpin, bukan memimpin tangan awek pergi masuk hotel ye. Awaklah sebenarnya sebab utama baby2 banyak kena tinggal tepi jalan, bawah jambatan, dalam tong sampah, dalam baby hatch suma tu. Kalau ada perasaan GUILTY n RESPONSIBILITY tu takpe jugak, boleh jaga anak luar nikah awak tu. Ni, awek kate " Abang, saya dah pregnant. Macam mana ni?", you all sibuk cabut lari macam tak cukup tanah nak jejak. Ish ish ish. Yang si awek preggy tu sibuk cari tempat nak gugurkan baby. Ish ish ish. Astarghfirullahalazim.


Ok lah sini saje, sekarang sudah pukul 6.51 petang. Saya buka meggi je lah. Haha~ Baik lappy mengong, takley detect USB. Next tyme lah letak gamba. Peace~


owh. edited ;
suda letak gamba but mostly gambar banyak blur. aiseh. seriously kena belajar dari kak kina ni. haha~ ;D

045 papeje~ XD

girl 1 : tingkat berapa nak turun?
girl 2 : 1 je lah terus. nak balik kan?
girl 3 : ni tingkat berapa?
girl 1 : 2! tangga jom!
girl 3 : lif lah~ tak baik bazir lemak.... ( ?!!!)
girl 1 n 2 dah gelak mcm nak pecah perut....

girl 3 tu sgt kelakar. 1st time dengar orang cakap macam tu.
maknenye, die lagi suka conserve lemak la ea?
haha~ saye rase macam patut je lemak tu dibazirkan. (dari sudut pandangan saye lah)
tapi janganlah terbuang terus lemak dalam badan tu sampai jadik marasmus.... XD

"If you're looking for rides through calm waters, then don't marry a STAR old boy!"

"STAR is unique! Unlike some other institutions, STAR has been breeding wholesome men; men who knows how to enjoy life and unless you are on the same wave length (reads as equallylepak or cracko!), he is capable of spoiling yours (life) !"

-quoted from http://staroba.my written by Pp
*full story here*

I mean, this is cool~ haha.. then how bout my dad? Just wondering whether he have the same some sort of wavelength with my mom? Haha XD

By the way, agreed with what he said la. My dad is kinda carefree sort of type lah. I think he is the man that *know how to enjoy life* and in the same time, he is totally fun inside and out~ Literally : open minded sorta type.

And I am wondering, how these STAROBA boys are all kinda very close to each other even when they didn't even know each other! Once, my day and I went to this Perak's The lost World of Tambun. And of course, he was wearing his STAROBA cap like always. And of course, another ex-STAR who doesn't even know my dad's name, just talk to my dad. And they become close like a second after their eyes met. Haha. I know. Exaggerating like always.

And what amazed me,is that that ex-STAR is in the class of '80s. My dad is in the class of '60s. Look at their age difference! @_@

And also, once, my dad park his car in a shopping mall. And suddenly, a man of his 20s just greet him. He just come out of nowhere an act like he already know my dad for days. Of course, my dad have this STAROBA member sticker on his car.

Pelik. but it's true. They are like a conglomerate or something but with better friendship.. Nak buat askar tambahan pon boleh. Haha. no offence STARians~

040 tak nak dan tak suke

Due2 ade.
Tak nak dan tak suke.
kalau tak suke mestilah kite tak nak kan?
Tapi kalau kita tak nak, tak semestinye kite x suke.
It depends lah.
Depends on which came first.
Tak nak or tak suke.
But if 'tak suke' came first, it'll be bad.
Takpe2.
This is the last sem of this year.
Nex sem suda tukar.

Then, lagi satu. Kenapa ada sesetengah orang sangat2 suke jual ikan.
I mean, please read between the lines.
Jual ikan tak mendatangkan hasil langsung.
"Fine if you hate me, I'm not gonna hate you too,
I'll just disrespect you je..."

I am not telling this straight to ur face because I'm afraid I'll hurt you.
But if you are just as insensitive and ignorant as a rock,
I might have been curse you straight to your face.
I love us spending time together.
It's just that I don't like your attitude.
Hah. amek kau.
Even my diary don't know this.


p/s: now, I'm searching for HIS hidayah~
Because I just realize why I am not happy here in the first place.
I just wanna be the way I am.
But I can't find the old me.
I am just not comfortable here, right now.
Hell yeah, this is me writing and telling the truth.

039 inilah life saye

inilah life saye. saye suke atau x, inilah life yang saye dapat.
No re-do or undo and no going back right?

Menyesal atau x, this is where I'm gonna stand up and move on.
Btw, I feel nothing lately.
No wisdom, no sadness, no anger.
Just empty.
How can life be that?
Then, I seek out for serenity.
But I found nervousness.
It was either anxiety or nervousness la..
I don't know.
Then I search for wisdom.
But I found myself caught in the middle.
Between the routines and the dreams.
This is funny.
I guess I can have both.
But I guess I have to struggle a lot to have both.
And looking back, I don't struggle a lot these days.
haha~
ape merapu ni...
either way, medicine or writing.. I am happy with those 2.
Like Dr. J. Bing said in his book.
Medicine is his master and music is his mistress.
In my case, medicine is my master and writing is my mistress.
Haha. XD

033 saye suke itu ini

just nak cakap.
indecisive behaviour itu sangat pelik.
jangan la jadi indecisive spanjang hidup kalau boleh.
sebab behaviour ni susah nak ilangkan.
boleh dikatekan habit tak?
oh. lupe lak.
saye mengalami indecisive behaviour yang sgt teruk.
saye tak suke break promise orang.
tapi saye indecisive.
stakat ni, org2 kat skeliling saye yang decide kan ape2.
nak beli baju pun macam teragak2.
Rase2nye adeke org lain yang mengalami indecisive behaviour yang kronik mcm ni?

H.E.L.P
SOS pls....

019 W.O.R.D.S

Words is a part of our speech and it is how we communicate with other people and it is how other people understands us.

Sometimes words can be a stimuli and makes ppl happy.

But in other times, words can also annoyed others.

So, be careful while you are talking and be wise in choosing the right words.

Once it is written, we can still delete or erase it but once it's become part of the speech, we can't go back and memories are not easily deleted unless there is a severe memory loss or an alzheimer

(not really.. teehee~).

But then, words stab deeper than the swords and harder than diamond and remember, sensitive people DO take it seriously.