037 Kito Aya, 1 litre of tears. I cried too.

Kito Aya (July 1962 - May 23, 1988) was a bright cheerful girl. She wrote a diary about her life before she went to eternal sleep at the age of 26 years old. She was diagnosed to have spinocerebellar degeneration disease when she was 15. Since then she wrote a diary, 1 Litre of Tears, about her thoughts about life and the progression of her disease and her strength to live on until she was dead. The disease which have no cure at that time and until now causes a person to lose the ability to walk and talk, generally the person affected will not be able to control over their own body.

She was strong in accepting the reality of her disease. Her diary touches people all over the world and was sold to millions of copies. It was also made into a drama which I cried tonnes of tears when I saw it. FYI, I rarely cried 'wholeheartedly' when watching dramas or movies. But this is different. Her thoughts moved me. Her strength motivate me. I want to become just like that person and live on. Why sometimes we think that our lives was so miserable? We are blessed. We have the life. Aya did have life too but she cannot have the life the way she wanted. Thinking of that, I feel so blessed.

Kito Aya when she was 18. She started to move around on wheelchair at this time.

When she was 23.

Before she had the disease

Her diary, 1 Litre of Tears.

p/s: esok suda start belajar... Good luck to me!
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Assalamualaikum~

036 New module, new wish, new attitude

assalamualaikum~
just wanna updates here and there. Hehe~
New year, with new resolutions.

1. Hard works never fails me, so I'm gonna keep it up.
Suda melencong away from my focus a bit these days.

2. No hasad dengki, no anger, no jealousy to others.
I'm a bit competitive and got very worried if others got something which far
more better than me especially with the MARKS!
So, now. NO thinking about others. Like hell, I'M ON MY OWN!

3. Nak lebih rajin buat ibadat sunat. Tak nak lewatkan solat!

Come hell or high water, I'll study hard, Doa and then Tawakkal.
(This formula never fails me before. Will always do it again and again.)

Now, here's some pics... ^^

cilok sekejap mase lab~ We can be very naughty tau!

tido time tunggu nasik siap.
Kedai tu sgt la lambat!

Kat lecture hall~
This is when boredom aura is surrounding me.

Start of the Respiratory System Module.
Dr. Narimah is the coordinator.
So, I'm really looking 4ward to it!

Just finished CVS ( Cardiovascular Module ) today with the PT.
The test was okay. I just hopes for the best result.
Anyway, I don't think I studied very hard.
I don't think that it was enough~

Anyway,
about the CVS module.
we studied about the heart which was very100x interesting.
But then again it was interesting only if there was no pharmacology in it lar~
For some reason, I actually don't like much about pharmaco.
We need to remember those drugs and stuff like their names
and their mechanism of action,
and their side effects, toxicity effects and all.
It was very hard. So right now, I'm trying very hard to find the perfect formula
for me to remember all those things.
*cross your fingers y'all!*
^.^"

Another interesting thing I learnt in this module
is about Shock.
Well it's shocking isn't it?
Haha.
okay. not funny~

Ok daa... finished with the stories.
I'm going back to the games...
T_T"

Assalamualaikum~

035 The day it all ended.

The day it all ended. It is the day that separate 2009 and 2010. I was amused that day. I finally have matured. Not that I finally have realized that I have grown older day by day. I'm still as childish as always.

I still have the lazily-lying-around-all-day mood in the weekends.
I still cannot change how sensitive I am around people.
I still have a little teeny crush on boys like all other teenagers.
I still cannot be the one I want to be as I am always attracted to new things and stuff.
And I am not matured enough to control my own life.
I still need my guardian.
I still need my parents.
I still need my friends.

For this 2009. I am not looking back anymore.
Let it all be my memories which I will locked them in the little shiny glass box of my life and throw the keys to the place I won't reach. Although I might won't be able to open it again, I still can look at them from the outside of the glass box and remind myself of the past, beautiful or ugly, happy or sad, it would all be remembered always.

As for 2010.
I had my mind fixed on something. I want to be what I want to be and this time, I meant it. I have been prepared. My mind had focused on that particular something. Maybe I can't reach it. But I will not give up along the way. Like magic, I hope I will wake up one day, achieving all my dreams, busy juggling the life that I always wanted and looking back at the pathway I have followed. I hope I won't regret the pathway I took and live the life happily like others.

p/s: Memories which stays as memories and the past which remains as the past. I won't look back. And I won't be regret.

034 Saya mau update ini blog~

well, actually,
it's like months since I've updated this page(according to me~)
and it feels like ages since i got the chance to put up some post or
just edit or actually upload some photos here
(according to me too~)
but it's not
well,
actually it is.
because the last time i checked,
ok,
I'll check it back.
It's like 3 weeks ago since I last updated this page..
OK...
I've been talking nonsense.
Just ignore it.
Anyhow,
tonight, (err.. it's morning already...)
I mean today,
I'll personally will update my page
and style
and theme~
walla~
^_________________^"

033 saye suke itu ini

just nak cakap.
indecisive behaviour itu sangat pelik.
jangan la jadi indecisive spanjang hidup kalau boleh.
sebab behaviour ni susah nak ilangkan.
boleh dikatekan habit tak?
oh. lupe lak.
saye mengalami indecisive behaviour yang sgt teruk.
saye tak suke break promise orang.
tapi saye indecisive.
stakat ni, org2 kat skeliling saye yang decide kan ape2.
nak beli baju pun macam teragak2.
Rase2nye adeke org lain yang mengalami indecisive behaviour yang kronik mcm ni?

H.E.L.P
SOS pls....